The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
The Louvre Museum has 8.5 million visitors per year. This blog was viewed about 1,100,000 times in 2014. If it were an exhibit at the Louvre Museum, it would take about 47 days for that many people to see it.
Dating a Sociopath 
This is the best site in the world. There is a very loving person behind it all, the one who “makes it happen”, who sends caring, genuine, genius advice on handling and surviving one of the worlds most dangerous predators. THANK YOU POSITIVAGIRL …..with ALL of my heart. Happy New Year! Xx ☺️
Thanks bunny’s by, happy new year. How was your Christmas?
Christmas was very nice. Peaceful. I hope yours was very relaxing and peaceful too. Xx
Keep up the good work everyone 👍👍👍👍
Congrats on your site’s success! It is with great pleasure to be part of the worldwide group and fellowship. I wish Nikki and all the other bloggers all the best in the new year ( Egadds! 2015!? already?). Really enjoy the ability to read all your accounts as it makes me feel less weird about the choices I have made. I am hoping for continued improvement and peace of mind in the new year!
Sincerely, Edaldude
Ha you know I was thinking about you today and wondering how you were doing!!!
Spooky huh? 🙂
How are things going for you today, was the holiday season ok for you?
BBBBBBBa BOO! Yeah, Nikki, you do a great job of that “psychic- connection thing”~ I am sorry for delay in responding but it’s been strange period.
Holdays were first I EVER experienced where I barely decorated, esp. Xmas. After spending all year renewing my house, myself- I just didn’t have it in me to go through so many of the items and decorations my sis and I seperated from my beloved mother (* we finally got things split after mom’s demise). So getting the chance to finally get it done was emotionally draining and ultimately realising where my evil step Dad kept us at bay more than half the year to get his greedy hands all over the valuables and heirlooms, left me feeling flabergasted. My sis had to make several trips to clear that up. All the while my house torn up, one disaster after the other insofar as the projects, etc! And yet, I never felt depressed. I felt like I found a more truths about my mom, my stepDad was obviously another Spath! Hell I’ve even come to realise my own dad is one TOO! Jesus, is the majority? AM I ONE? I don’t think so or I would not bother with any of this!
I just wanted QUIET!!!!! I wanted to not partake in the notion of some, at this point, strange concept of Xmas. It doesn’t feel like Xmas as my mom WAS the season, and, honestly, I just was sick of the thought of getting caught up in the process. Just, finally, utterly, took it as just another peaceful day, not so much as even making any special meal! I only got a couple of presents, and even then those from my sis were not sent untll New Years to open, because I cancelled (*supposedly, I knew I wasn’t going to make the trip) my trip to be with my sis’ family! I know, I am bad.
So here it is already mid Jan! Almost but at anyrate, time is flying by as usual. I MADE myself get on the comp and do this today! I barely get on the computer at all as the days go by- only somewhat keeping on top of emails and other e-obligations! Am I burnt out? Am I in some sort of new process? Probably.
I don’ t know about much, but I do know that I am sort of numb. I had my Sociopath come back, just as predicted so eloquently by your blog, right before the holidaze ( of course and it was HIS birthday too). I braced myself back after first word from your hiatus and took as sign I would hear from. Sent the “Sincerely” titled email I should never had read.
I was fooled again. I was hurt again. Thrice times now, as he comes back, we get intimate, he hurts my feelings and I reject him. Over and over. I know he’s missed up- will never change. I read on here, but find myself in a different place with the whole thing. It doesn’t hurt as much this round. I don’t even make an effort to act like he matters even though the love making is so passionate- it is futile. I keep looking on dating sites, I go on some dates here and there. My last blow up with my ex was that he saw me on one of the dating apps and played all jealosy! I was like “Seriously, after all the shit you done to me and I was supposed to take you on your word that “you had changed” blah blah. I never took it seriously and YOU have NO right to say nothing about what I do at this point”!
I heard a quote from an old movie as I have allowed myself to veg on these cold, dark, rainy days of winter and watch many a flick and recount and catch up on old movies I missed back when! I love the odd old 40’s movies best of all!. It seems familiar, and comforting- even though I only vaguely remember from when I was a kid. I can understand things now on a whole new level!
One quote I repeated to my exSpath just the other night:
“You can never love me because you love your Freedom more than anything else in the World”
So true- a common condition of the sociopath. Yeah I think on some level he loves me, and when I see his puppy dog eyes or hear him say how much he misses me, I melt. I know it was a waste of time to be with him again, but I get so lonely. And I am so one with him when we are intimate. But just as soon as it’s over, well, it’s over. I understand now why, even though I don’t understand.
And for that, well, it gives me peace of mind. I don’t have much use for anxiety or even depression. That part of it is over, thanks God. But, I know ultimately it is a total waste of my time and I put no value on the relationship almost as though it is a dream ( or nightmare)!
Thanks for your new posts and insights! How I love to read everyone’s take on things. This site is “heavy”- but yet it makes you feel light! I know my ex will be gone as soon as he finds someone else more exciting ( as I don’t call or make plans with him- why bother? On some level it is almost flattering that I am still a candidate! LOL). So, like the one before when he left, it’s only a matter of time. I am ok with that. Even though I still don’t know why.
Cheers!
Edaldude
Happy New Year Pos, stopped by to say Im 15 months no contact, and I feel good, normal, and healthier. Thankyou for all your support in these past 2yrs, Phoenix and yourself have been an inspiration to me. I hope 2015 bring you and she a ton of happiness this yr and the yrs to come. I will keep in touch. . Love ya Boopsiekisses .
Hey Boopsie, Happy New year!!! Yay go you for 15 months!! Over a year!!! I hope that new positive and happy things are coming into your life, and if not yet, then I hope that the grass is starting to shine through from the bare earth, and that it won’t be too long before there are beautiful flowers, bright sunny skies, and so much to give you hope and joy in life. Happy new year!! 🙂
CONGRATULATIONS , well done girl xo
Well thankyou Pos for that very positive outlook. I have my energy back and that bastard can ne er take it again. Wow they do so much damage,, no one can ever imagine, you have to be with one to get it. There robots mentally. He calls mmy son from jail and begs for my #. He knows where I live and when he gets out he will beg me to come back, but for all the wrong reasons, he lost control of me finally,, now hes gonna lose control of himself
Idodoyouride, thankyou so much, one day your journey as everyone here will be over.. Good Luck
You dont see it though do you until you are on the other side of it?
Its crap that he calls your son, what is he doing that for? He he is son too, or his friend? Can your son not block his number? As he will use your son to get at you.
Yes you are right, if they do not have control over someone else, they lose control of themselves.
Pos, thats our son. My son tells him no dad, mom asked me not to. He knows where I live, if he doesnt want to go back to jail he will leave me be..